Build a wall of depressing foundation and shield yourself from the uncaring world. Put your head between your knees and cradle yourself into hopeless serenity. Shy away from extended hands and let yourself fall into a trance. Peace..

But when it starts to attract unwanted attention. When people around you start fussing, you turn to them with a plastered smile across your face and laugh like a retard. You try hard to be the sweet darling everyone wants you to be and please the world. Then, you return to the wonderful solace of the detached world you were once in.

Not everyone can keep a smile on their faces for the sake of others. Everyone has their time. No not pms. There are days when a smile just doesn't come, and laughter seems absurd. And no today i could not lift the mood soon enough, even faking a smile was hard enough. Being the nicest person in the world don't win you a one way ticket onto God's lap. Pleasing people just didn't seem important today. I am sorry.

Nevertheless, i had a spastic day today. Such moods call for desperate measures to entertain oneself, and with spastic friends.. Life's -xxxxxx-

Its justified enough when the boyfriends leave you for their projects and the girlfriend hangs around to keep you company. Camera love.

No matter how i feel, you people make me feel good for the moment. Spasticity does wonders to dumb dumbs like us. Love.