Checkmate
If you asked me, I think I would rather get shot down than to be in the position I am in right now. Let's say, I'm not exaggerating here. Metaphorically speaking, its an equivalent to being burnt alive. The initial bravery, and then the searing pain, and then the scream, tears and an overdose of regret.
Its easy to say how I want what's best for you. And for me. But then and again I fear I confuse myself between the best way and the easiest way out.
I think we can safely say, I screwed up.
Big Time.
This weekend will not be good.